Passion.....And aggression....And dating.....

I am now sitting home and writing this b/c my date tonight, with (for lack of a better pseudonym) X, was cancelled. And I was actually looking fwd to it. I usually don't let myself get caught up in all those girly kinds of feelings (I even shaved my legs) because it seems that when I do things do not turn out well.

Last week we went out and a good time was had by all. What began as an evening of dinner with a friend whom I had not seen in a while slowly turned into something rather date-like (and not in that weird way when a friend likes you more then you like them, or vice-versa). The conversation flowed, the chemistry was good, the kiss at the end of the night even better.

So, was X really tired? Or was that just a convenient excuse? (Or am I just being slightly neurotic?). He said we should try for tomorrow night (when he knew that I already had plans with friends), and maybe meet up for a drink after that.....That's really what a gal wants to hear. It just smacks of 'friend'.

I am not a passive-aggressive person by nature. But this one time I heard myself saying things like "sure, if you want to" (call me tomorrow that is), "yeah, maybe" (we'll have a drink tomorrow). Is it too late for a tiger to change her stripes?


I guess I'll just have to wait and see if he really cares to make it up to me (a phrase that he did not use when canceling- things seeming gloomier).

Current mood: disappointed, annoyed, rejected, confused, slightly hurt